Here, I am (original song)

original song by Stephanie T. Villeda. inspired by God's Unconditional Love. 


Verse 1
I don't even know where to start
Seems that everyone has broken my heart
I Try to discern Your Voice from theirs
Tell me, do You really hear my prayers?


CHORUS:
Here, I am, calling out to You
Tell me, God, do You hear me too?
Do You love me, like they tell me You do?
Show me, Show me, I want to know You.


Verse 2
I don't even know what to say
seems that everytime I try to pray
my heart is so consumed with
the worries of the day 
please, take the pain away


Yet, in You, I trust always


CHORUS:
Here, I am, calling out to You
Tell me, God, do You hear me too?
Do You love me, like they tell me You do?
Show me, Show me, I want to know You.


Bridge
I close my eyes, Expose my heart, Here I am, Before You (4x)
And I feel Your Love, knocking deep inside my heart
And I know You're here, everything points straight to You
And I know You're real, deserving of every praise,
but I steady my voice as I hear You say...


CHORUS:
Here, I am, calling out for you
Tell me, Son, do you want Me too?
Do you love Me? 'Cause I've always loved you.
Show Me, Show Me, I want to know... you.

Bright Eyed Boy

oh, 

it's the bright eyed boy 
with the smile on his heart, 
that makes mine beat fast...
he's got me thinkin' 'bout 
that thing 
and I can only hope this will last...
I can see so much beauty
within those eyes,

emanating from deep within...

this joy, our hearts,
how safely they shine,

I never thought I'd feel this again...

a man of devotion,

my expectations surpassed...

oh,

how I pray this will last.

Every time

Every time I wake,
the Sun sings to my soul and my soul sings praises to the Lord.
How grateful I am to rise yet again!

Every time I wake,
my bones become more brittle, my skin aging from their demands,
forever being reminded that I am human.
Every time I wake,
your face breaks through the light, haunting my thoughts,
and I am burdened by your memory.

Every time, I pray for the strength to get through another day.

Every time I take a step,
through the moments,
through the breaths,
through the thoughts,
through the dreams,
through the mists,
through the memories,
you are present, yet fleeting,
and I am left empty...

Every time,
I expect you to be there,
waiting for me on my way home...



What took you so long, my darling?



Every time, I pray for the strength to get through this day.







Sorry, I couldn't make it.
you  are alive, here, inside my heart,
yet here, in this outside world, you are nothing
but the reflection of the ghost of a man
I once knew...
Every time I close my eyes,
your image floats through my mind,
and I am left reaching out yet grasping only Air.
Everytime I close my eyes,
the storm is relentless within, the Winds piercing
and crushing my heart, yet I am almost to the shore.

Every time I close my eyes,
the stars inside my mind seem to whisper
louder than the sound of your silence, I am not alone.

Everytime, I pray for the strength to get through today.

Good Grace

(here's an original poem: something to reflect on this Holy Week, 

Good Friday in particular, in preparation for Easter and the Resurrection...)

You say you're a Christian

and yet you're granting permission,

given in total submission,

to sin, its blocking your vision

within, and you think you'll win,

and I admit that I've been there,

but there is only One Victor.

It's the Messiah, Christ Jesus,

Hallelujah! He frees us!

But have you told Him you need Him?

Maybe you think there's no reason

for you to need of a Savior.

I once was a heathen, I understand what you're saying,

but check your heart beat: can you stop it completely? willingly?

man, you can't, you're life's not in your hands,

it;s in His, without Him,

we're in chains, bound, wound, and enslaved;

consumed in hazardously addictions, voluntarily ignoring convictions,

seeking temporary and false affections: you still think you can buy your own salvation?

But that's a Life you can't gain through your own efforts,

that's Ephesians chapter two, the fourth through ninth verse.

See, it's by God's Good Grace that we can live this life.

Enjoy the smiles, and the laughs, while standing firm through the strife.

Now I want you to think about this

like I have had to think about this:

Choose to get drunk and have a lot of sex...

choose to do drugs, live your life in excess...

choose to hurt others, you're spewin' violence...

You're choosin' to spend your time while you're drownin' in sin,

So if you won't choose to spend even one day with Him,

why you desperately hopin' for eternity in Heaven?

See, we're all sinners no matter how hard we try to be saints.

Yes, it's good to feed the hungry, to mourn with others in their pain,

It's what he calls us to do: Love's the greatest gift to give today.

But the only thing that matters is what Christ lived on the Cross,

He gave up his life so that we could have one.

His death wasn't the end,

He resurrected, and ascended, and is seated at the Throne.

Pause, rewind, let me hear that one more time:

He resurrected and ascended and is seated at the Throne.

Believing in Him, you're resurrected in Him:

complete and total access to total forgiveness and love.

He tells us that with confidence we can meet Him at His Throne,

But I hope you check your steps, make sure you're on your way home...