About Me

a writer & love of beautiful and true things. // Joshua 1:9

Sunday, December 30, 2012

Teenager

It's so funny how even seven years after the fact,
you can still make me feel like I'm fourteen...
completely Helpless,
a disgrace to the family,
an utter nuisance;
like I should stay locked in my room and not breathe your air.
I'm sorry.
I promise to change.

But I close the door and throw myself onto my bed,
try to drown myself with the warmth of my sheets,
and hum as loud as I can.
This way, I can barely hear your yells and the shattering glass.
I'm sorry.
What did you say?

But then my own thoughts break through:
Why did I come back here?

They say home is where the heart is,
but who were they?



Tuesday, October 23, 2012

The Sacred Heart

a Heart so fragile
yet so strong
the one you keep drawing me to
and i can't resist...
my safe haven
and refuge

i can breathe again.

Monday, September 10, 2012

Where I'm coming from


I am from a broken heart,
From a man with no name and no face. 
I am from the balance between life and death,
From a miracle that kept fighting against all odds.
I am from a home of premature faiths,
And loud disagreements.
I am from halal and kebobs,
And  arroz con leche.
From "Mash'Allah" 
and "Si, se puede!"
From undecipherable Marks and 
sixty-six love Letters.
I am from tightly interlaced fingers
And reverent closed eyes.
I am from ears that were first opened
to the sound of fatherly love
after eighteen years of silence. 
I am from music notes and careful words,
From colorful impulsivity and
repentant recollection.
I am from Hands that kept molding
And keep holding me in one piece.


I am from the hood,
From red and blue flashing lights,
from accidents on purpose, 
from stolen wombs 
and blood on white 
December nights.
I am from gunshots and
scarred wrists, 
from open arms and innocent dreams
on cold and gritty New York streets.
I am from lost fantasies and better realities
From depression and from Hope;
I AM from Love.
I am from Peace.


*this poem inspired this song:




Sunday, August 5, 2012

Bonfire

the flames speak of pride
burning bright and mighty,
growing with each breath...
but it is ephemeral.
the licks of life shine briefly,
for quickly, they return to ashes.
in reverence of their sanguine existence,
they whisper their heated tales
for but a few moments longer, and
I trace my fingers through
the final wisps and inhale, deeply.

Sunday, July 29, 2012

Fireflies

The last time I saw fireflies was on a still summer night
walking home from all the mess we made,
thinking how will my life be after all this pain
that has stained
my path?
and our memories replayed
and I was reminiscing on your eyes and how healing from their cutting gaze
has been exponentially delayed.
I was deep in thought but then I was caught off guard;
I took it as a hopeful sign from God--because as I walked
through the dark,
I could see a glow from the corner of my eye
and when I focused more, I saw them--about seven fireflies,
shining in and out of existence.
And I was instantly reminded that hope requires persistence,
that no instance of depression or any lowly heartless position
could ever take away my hope...
Because it is in the most quietest moments of my soul
that a light is lit within,
always helping me get safely home.

Departed

the living
walking
among the dead
snap
snap
snap
a picture
caught eternally as a frozen
moment
as they lie below
eternally asleep
as children laugh and frolick
above and through their
departed memories
and meek eulogies
on tombstones, so gray and cold.

Saturday, July 14, 2012

Zombie Apocalypse

SPOKEN WORD: 
"RAP" + Bloopers: 

Monday, July 9, 2012

Maybe, Just Maybe


Oh, why do I give him a single moment of my time?
My God, It’s crazy how he’s running through my mind!
And I know it’s foolish considering all of the pain
And the hurt that he left me here with, it’s always the same

and after all this time
my heart wants me to find you and let you know I still love you
but my strength wont let me fall back down to you

cause I have changed so much
I have become so tough
Overcoming all our love
I now know that God is Enough
The only One I can trust
And I pray for you so much
But with no contact
I only wonder if the devil has attacked
You, broken you, back, down and won
Or if you have changed too
And are willing to live in the Son

Maybe with time, we can forgive and forget
Maybe with love, we can erase the regret
Maybe, just maybe

But I don’t want to live in disillusions
Because I know true love is only an illusion—
No one is perfect, we all make mistakes
But why did we have to end it this way?
I want to know
If maybe, just maybe,
This still matters to you?
Does your heart still whisper “I love you”?
But more than that,
I want to know if you are safe.
Are you embracing the Sun?
Maybe, just maybe.
I hope the Light has won.

Wednesday, July 4, 2012

Like A Soldier


You want a Relevant element
 I’m Dependent on the Sacrament
There’s just no comparison
my greatest weapon of self-defense
Im callin your bluff and its
It’s time to heal ya sin we’re exposin’ it
Your Phenomenal reticence
Longs for Innocence so adamant
And so we’re killin em drainin em
Slowly like a titanium
Bomb to the bottom
We tellin ‘em about Him
Lost souls we go get’em
Bring’em to the Throne of our Father
That’s why I’m his daughter
Reel ‘em in like a soldier
As your soul fights for exposure
The toll’s that of the greatest war ya
Will ever fight in your life
Its always a struggle and it startin’ tonight
and when you wake in the morning
and you feel the tug of the callin’
dont run from it applaud it
cause every soul will get audited
so your faith, don’t renounce it
better yet embrace it 
dont let your life get wasted
so when it’s the last call 
and ur friends are makin jokes
faith hope n love are all 
that will be left, nothing else, 
that’s all folks!







Tuesday, July 3, 2012

Echoes

a pin drops
my heart stops
its true talk
the real cost
of life bought
and lied against
a broken pavement
cracked and bent
disillusory trick
heat escapes quick
and the sound of hope
trickles
if we elope 
in wrinkles
to a time that we'd know
but all that's left are echoes
empty in my soul


*check out this song too: 

Thursday, June 28, 2012

If Reality Knocks

if a tree falls in the middle of
an unpopulated area
and so then no one is around to hear it--no one perhaps except God--
does the tree actually fall?

perception
or
deception?

either way,
i'm here,
thinking and riddling the hours away
trying to figure out how to get your memory
as far away from me as possible..
knock knock
who is there?
always you.
always.

so,
if i am thinking about you
in an unpopulated area
alone in my room, where only God can hear my thoughts,
do you feel me thinking about you?
do you get the notion that i miss you/
do you realize love doesn't die?

so,
if i am thinking about you
and no one is around,
can you hear my heart through the miles in between?

i just want to know,
in a silent prayer,
do you think about me too?
and not in a way that just recognizes my existence,
but,
do you really truly think about me?

knock knock
who is it?
reality.
oh, thank you for stopping by.

Sunday, June 17, 2012

Stripped Away

A youth stripped away from his future;
Only twenty years old ,
crossing a creek of waters so cold,
drowning during his final adventure.
And the world goes on—
The plights and fights
Of love gone wrong,
When all that really matters is life,
Not the location of the party tonight,
or the whore you wouldn't dare dream of making your wife.
Death doesn’t discriminate
On gender, religion, race, or age.
When your time comes, you will come
Face to face 
With the Truth.

Will you know what to say in your final hour?
Will you be prepared in the proper armor?

A youth dancing with fire 
instead of planning for the future
Is Death’s favorite playground.
Get close enough and you burn,
stripped, naked and exposed. 
The young are so naïve sometimes,
Unaware, thinking that they have no ties
To the ground,
because their minds are 
always floating through the clouds.
But Death loves to surprise
And loves to visit in disguise.

As the angels' sorrows slowly rise,
The heavens open up and cry;
And although we may inherit the Kingdom
Too many have no care for it, nor its freedom,
Thinking there’s no chance they will die.  
Oh, but they continue to flirt with puppet-like lies
and blind away the life from their own eyes.

It is sad.
It is done.
A youth stripped away of his future,
while the remaining continue on. 

Pierce our hearts, 
O Mercy Divine. 

Monday, June 11, 2012

Clouds

late nights
stolen dreams
but the light
still shines within

and it seems
that through the seams
love will always burst through

the clouds gather
my joy scatters
and fear may settle
but there is always love

and it is steadfast
and constant
and pure

what are we destined for?
my eyes glisten
from the tears
and the hopes

because
through the clouds,
my eyes can still see...

and it is all thanks to You.

Sunday, June 10, 2012

Words of Life

speak words of life! 
words that are 
reflective, positive, and encouraging. 
help build a house of love! 
refrain from the unkind,
harsh and discouraging banter. 


your words are one of your
strongest tools 
and should be utilized fully.
your words have the power
to build someone up 
so help build them up to be 
everything they are meant to be.


your words will have an effect.
make sure you are spreading love
hope
and faith.

for they will always remain.

Wednesday, June 6, 2012

Heal my Heart, O Jesus

O, Jesus,
I know You watch over me
I know You always hear me
I know You care for me

O, Jesus,
these moments are breaking me down
I feel lost at times and forgotten
I feel so vulnerable

my heart, O Jesus,
heal my heart...

Your Love is what I need
God, I ask you with everything I am...
heal my heart...

From my bedroom window,
I see the moon, bright and yellow,
large and powerful,
promising, rising.
And, I feel You here with me.

You promise to be here with me,
through it all.

So heal my heart, O Jesus.
It is Yours. All Yours.
And Only Yours.

Reside in Love

love
it's that thing we all try to find
that thing we all try to define
what we go for at any length to feel the strength of its divine essence 
but if you read between the lines love is so much more
love cannot be curated or purified because love is already so pure
see love was not created so it cannever be destroyed. it just is. 

love is what brings all walk of life together, bound forever in this circle of life; 
love is what gives us life! it is the greatest truth of our lives 
because we were fabricated with love from the beginning of time 
you inhale it exhale it it's the greatest tale you will ever tell : love...

and if you dont believe me just look all round, 
love tries to shine in the hearts of so many 
yet so many are lost in the dark dyin to be found
see love is worth fighting for
it is everything you could dream of and more. 
love can be found in the darkest of places 
because it's light is forever and ever more...

love is the greatest reason for life 
because love is what we all need; 
the next time you see someone who just looks a little sad 
and you're thinkin man all that person needs is love, 
dont shy away from the challenge, i dare you to take it up!
because love is the greatest gift to be given. 
so muster the strength to show that love is a must and that 
love is the greatest truth of our life. 
and as such, remember these words: 
reside in love.

and it doesnt matter what you believe in 
or what credence you associate yourself with 
cause love is every fiber of our being
it is intricately laced, can never be defaced,
because love has been delicated placed 
into every ounce of our existence.

love is an amazing thing; 
the most precious note of every song we could ever sing 
and more valuable than the most expensive of ten thousand diamond rings.

love is what keeps us going through this life 
and so if you are harbored with strife 
just reach out because love will have a hand out for you to hold.. behold it is love.

it is so pristine and whether your name is paul john muhammad jose kate or christine 
or whatever else it may be, love is in your name. 
breathed between the syllables, so thick and palpable,
love is forever incredible... 
because when you speak 
you are a representation of love in the flesh 
so let no hesitation be present 
because you ARE 
more than that 
because LOVE IS not to be tied down by the weight of this world 
it knows no bounds

because love is beyond anything we could ever imagine 
beyond gravity love is sincerity and humility, it is the push of humanity,
it is everything that we need and its lasts eternally!

see love was not created so it cannever be destroyed. it just is. 

love is for you and for me, 
love is here , so the next time your plea is love,
just look inside dear, 
because LOVE IS here.

Saturday, June 2, 2012

New Song (original)

original song by Stephanie T. Villeda

Verse 1:
I've been the one
desperate for love
hopin' that I would stay with you
I would pray
and make a wish
hopin' that this would be true

CHORUS: 
And now I see
you were never meant for me
And now I know 
you always had to go
And it's time to sing a new song

Verse 2:
I would stay
up really late
havin' our love forever on replay
I would cry
into the night
tryna understand why you left my side

CHORUS:
And now I see
God has bigger plans for me
And now I know
you always had to go
And it's time to sing a new song

Bridge-
You've given me
beautiful melodies
lovely memories
but it wasn't always that way
And from it all
I've learned to stand tall
not answerin' your call

'Cause I am well on my way...

... to singing a new song.

Sunday, May 20, 2012

Writing in the Sand

writing in the sand,
you + me
forever
where is your hand
now? I thought you'd never
leave..
you promised me.

these writings are empty
my memories vibrating
dunes undulating


then, a quick wind
whispers the pain away

the words can't be traced
a love erased

oh, if it were only so simple...



Saturday, May 19, 2012

Stardust


On that daily grind it's hard to find that peace of mind 
My steps may waver but His Love doesn't falter

He's the Sun. The brightest star like a superstar where we are just .. stardust.

And I must confess my lust for the approval of the world, 
it's in my nature as a girl, as a human, as a child, 
But if you've heard, He is Lord, and His Love is above the laws of this world. He is wild-ly and surprisingly constant. 
It's irrelevant if we've been hesitant cause He is adamant about His hate for sin, 
but He has forgiven every last offense if you seek repentance sincerely, 
do you hear me?

He's the Sun. The brightest star like a superstar and we are just .. stardust.

Yet like the dust and clay we were made to briefly stay, ephemeral.
Fleeting moments, trying to evade the fact that He has the final say, for He is eternal. 
Now, I was just a mess and my consciousness would not let Him in
When all I craved was freedom from hurt and sin

And I've heard about this man named Jesus
And how he came from the heavens to free us
But that was more than two thousand years ago.
I denied His impact on this heart 
that was desperately seeking a jumpstart.
But the more I sought for truth in the swerving youth 
that bought the lies of society 
The more I began to see 
that love was nowhere to be found.
And I helplessly cried and told myself "I'd be alright" , 
I wouldn't get jaded with the weighted burdens all around.
But when all you see is pain and all you hear is hate
its hard to elaborate on what it means to be loved.
But when I looked above I could always still see the sun.

He's the Son. The brightest star like a superstar where we are His stardust.

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

You are Everything (original song)

                                                            original song by me. inspired by God's unconditional Love.


Verse: You are Everything (4x)

Chorus (2x)
You are the reason that I sing
You are everything to me
You are everything I need
You, You, oh You, Lord 

Bridge (2x)
The AIR I breathe
The LOVE I speak
The LIFE in me
It's YOU, It's You
 
Oh, Lord, 
You're Everything




Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Hallelujah, Hallelujah

original song by Stephanie T. Villeda. inspired by God's Unconditional Love.

CHORUS

Hallelujah, Hallelujah, He reigns, He reigns.

Pouring out Love every Second that He claims, He claims.

Hallelujah, Hallelujah, He reigns, He reigns.

Nothing Greater than the Glory of His Name, His Name.



VERSE 1

No matter what I been through, Or where I've been Hiding

No matter any ache or pain, I can survive it

I can rise above it, I'm no longer a puppet

No longer tied down to negative strings,

I've got the hint,

He pulls on the Love strings, of my Heart,

And that's why I got an unbelievable New Start.

My life before just can't compare to this

Unbelievable Bliss

He struck a chord so Strong that I can't Resist.

Redeemed from my past, I can sing again out loud,

Nothing to hold me down, no longer lonely in a crowd,

All shadows cast aside, I've been saved and I survive,

I've been given a Brand. New. Life.



CHORUS



VERSE 2

He's sent me angels during my darkest hour,

Gave me courage and power, When I thought I was weak,

But His Love, ALWAYS NEAR, is one I can always keep.

Never abandoned

I've been enlightened,

Shown the true meaning of the meaning of life and

I'm forever grateful 'cause now life is beautiful.

And even though I walk through the valley of death,

He is My Breath,

The beat in my chest,

the pounce of my steps,

guides me from East to West,

moving me towards my Best,

and His Love doesn't Rest?

What could be greater than this??

Like a Warm Hug or a Soft Kiss,

He gives what I need when I need Him most,

With God, Jesus Christ, and the Holy Ghost,

Love is patient, Love is Kind, never envies, never boasts,



A perfect love more perfect than this could never exist!



BRIDGE

True, Hopeful, Never-Failing

Honest, sincere, always availing,

Humbler, Persistent, always prevailing,

His love is there for the taking and the sharing,

And that's simply why we sing cause He simply is amazing,

So let your soul rejoice in the Love that He's giving,

Cause we only get ONE life and that life is for LIVING.



CHORUS



Sunday, April 29, 2012

Here, I am (original song)



original song by Stephanie T. Villeda. inspired by God's Unconditional Love. 


Verse 1
I don't even know where to start
Seems that everyone has broken my heart
I Try to discern Your Voice from theirs
Tell me, do You really hear my prayers?


CHORUS:
Here, I am, calling out to You
Tell me, God, do You hear me too?
Do You love me, like they tell me You do?
Show me, Show me, I want to know You.


Verse 2
I don't even know what to say
seems that everytime I try to pray
my heart is so consumed with
the worries of the day 
please, take the pain away


Yet, in You, I trust always


CHORUS:
Here, I am, calling out to You
Tell me, God, do You hear me too?
Do You love me, like they tell me You do?
Show me, Show me, I want to know You.


Bridge
I close my eyes, Expose my heart, Here I am, Before You (4x)
And I feel Your Love, knocking deep inside my heart
And I know You're here, everything points straight to You
And I know You're real, deserving of every praise,
but I steady my voice as I hear You say...


CHORUS:
Here, I am, calling out for you
Tell me, Son, do you want Me too?
Do you love Me? 'Cause I've always loved you.
Show Me, Show Me, I want to know... you.

Monday, April 16, 2012

Bright Eyed Boy

oh, 
it's the bright eyed boy 
with the smile on his heart, 
that makes mine beat fast...
he's got me thinkin' 'bout 
that thing 
and I can only hope this will last...
I can see so much beauty
within those eyes,
emanating from deep within...
this joy, our hearts,
how safely they shine,
I never thought I'd feel this again...
a man of devotion,
my expectations surpassed...
oh,
how I pray this will last.




Tuesday, April 10, 2012

Every time

Every time I wake,
the Sun sings to my soul and my soul sings praises to the Lord.
How grateful I am to rise yet again!

Every time I wake,
my bones become more brittle, my skin aging from their demands,
forever being reminded that I am human.
Every time I wake,
your face breaks through the light, haunting my thoughts,
and I am burdened by your memory.

Every time, I pray for the strength to get through another day.

Every time I take a step,
through the moments,
through the breaths,
through the thoughts,
through the dreams,
through the mists,
through the memories,
you are present, yet fleeting,
and I am left empty...

Every time,
I expect you to be there,
waiting for me on my way home...



What took you so long, my darling?



Every time, I pray for the strength to get through this day.







Sorry, I couldn't make it.
you  are alive, here, inside my heart,
yet here, in this outside world, you are nothing
but the reflection of the ghost of a man
I once knew...
Every time I close my eyes,
your image floats through my mind,
and I am left reaching out yet grasping only Air.
Everytime I close my eyes,
the storm is relentless within, the Winds piercing
and crushing my heart, yet I am almost to the shore.

Every time I close my eyes,
the stars inside my mind seem to whisper
louder than the sound of your silence, I am not alone.

Everytime, I pray for the strength to get through today.

Saturday, April 7, 2012

Good Grace

(here's an original poem: something to reflect on this Holy Week, 
Good Friday in particular, in preparation for Easter and the Resurrection...)

You say you're a Christian
and yet you're granting permission,
given in total submission,
to sin, its blocking your vision
within, and you think you'll win,
and I admit that I've been there,
but there is only One Victor.
It's the Messiah, Christ Jesus,
Hallelujah! He frees us!
But have you told Him you need Him?
Maybe you think there's no reason
for you to need of a Savior.
I once was a heathen, I understand what you're saying,
but check your heart beat: can you stop it completely? willingly?
man, you can't, you're life's not in your hands,
it;s in His, without Him,
we're in chains, bound, wound, and enslaved;
consumed in hazardously addictions, voluntarily ignoring convictions,
seeking temporary and false affections: you still think you can buy your own salvation?
But that's a Life you can't gain through your own efforts,
that's Ephesians chapter two, the fourth through ninth verse.
See, it's by God's Good Grace that we can live this life.
Enjoy the smiles, and the laughs, while standing firm through the strife.

Now I want you to think about this
like I have had to think about this:
Choose to get drunk and have a lot of sex...
choose to do drugs, live your life in excess...
choose to hurt others, you're spewin' violence...
You're choosin' to spend your time while you're drownin' in sin,
So if you won't choose to spend even one day with Him,
why you desperately hopin' for eternity in Heaven?

See, we're all sinners no matter how hard we try to be saints.
Yes, it's good to feed the hungry, to mourn with others in their pain,
It's what he calls us to do: Love's the greatest gift to give today.
But the only thing that matters is what Christ lived on the Cross,
He gave up his life so that we could have one.
His death wasn't the end,
He resurrected, and ascended, and is seated at the Throne.
Pause, rewind, let me hear that one more time:
He resurrected and ascended and is seated at the Throne.
Believing in Him, you're resurrected in Him:
complete and total access to total forgiveness and love.
He tells us that with confidence we can meet Him at His Throne,
But I hope you check your steps, make sure you're on your way home...

Monday, March 12, 2012

The Singing Spirit

beauty reigns
the spirit that drains
is replaced
with the spirit of life

how great is this gift

my heart, now forever singing
oh, how beautiful, this feeling

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

stressing

the stress is compressing my chest
it's at it's best, this darkness won't rest; I need Your light to profess:
MY LIFE IS A MESS!
come fix me, rid me of this hex
cause what's next, just might slip...
right out of my hand
but you understand :
that true love is greater than good sex,
for intimacy with You knows no end,
for knowing truth leads to true happiness,
that beyond the grave, lies no more sadness;
that along the way, though I might break and cave,

You are the provider of strength to get me through these days,
Initiator of faith, the One that always remains.

You are the Reason why I raise any praise.
my soul longs for the promises You made
and clings to the love You've displayed,

but right now, I need You to heal me from the pain.
please, hear these pleas, and raise me from my grave.

trust, yes, I must, for I musn't delay,
I pray my plea is heard today ...

(hear the finalized version in song: Original Song: One Almighty [sorry for the poor quality]






Monday, January 30, 2012

The Only Calm in the Storm


dark rain violently drips from the windows to my soul;
a rampaging river, fuming and crashing against jagged rocks.

raging thunders engulf the coasts of my veins—
mercilessly, relentlessly piercing the sands of my mind.

ccrrrrrack! a suffering slices itself through the air,
and my lungs are drained, hopelessly in want of breath.

the clouds furiously roll;
with haste, they completely cover the crimson horizon.

and yet, a movement among the mammatus’
exposes a Light— barely visible, this enchanting streak of gold…


for the only calm in the storm is the steady, rising, Sun.

Saturday, January 21, 2012

3:29 a.m.

I was dreaming...
your image floating , steady, like a breeze.
slowly, ever so, you were almost in full view.
rising, ever so, my heart against its cage,
and then, like a swift talon bringing death,
five gun shots
stole my dream away.
they reverberated against the walls;
loud and unforgiving.
Am I still dreaming?

panicked whispers
beat mercilessly through
my windowpane,
as the white snow
incessantly
falls like the rain,
and still, your love,
leaves me without gain.

I wondered, was anyone hurt?
A small gray car pulled away,
without urgency nor hushed efforts,
driving itself deeper into the dirt.

may God amend the perilous road.

Saturday, January 14, 2012

Like You

Let me take this second to introduce myself,
I am a human like you, no more no less,
I'm here to help clarify some misconceptions,
and bring back all Honor and Glory in His Direction.
See Life, this one we have, was designed with perfection,
but the One who designed it gaves us freedom of selection:
To choose what we choose and live how we may,
knowing that His Vicotry is without condemnation.
See, I can readily speak with no hesitation,
words flowing, thoughts in easy cirulation,
but the reason behing this is Capital-T Truth         for the Nations.
See, with Him, there is no End, just Eternal Salvation.
But that freedom of choice is what allowed us to bring in Sin and evil,
We exposed our own nakedness back in the Garden of Eden:
Shame and pin befell
Our own disobedience led us straight to Hell,
but uh, I don't know if you've heard:
There is hope. And it lies in the Word.
Peace of mind, free from all binds,
not caught in the sands of time,
we are liberated in divine grace,
So, Redirect your attention and come to face these lines from Scripture:
With Him , in Him, and Of him, be more like Him,
continue no sin, show Him that you Love Him.
For the Love of money and greed has got you deceived,
So, Love your Neighbor and your Enemies.
If we really believe or our eyes are beginning to see,
then the latter is the reality we need to perceive.

I've come to realize that nothing is more important than Him.
That this life I hold in my hands was once drowning in Sin,
But because He came, Died, Resurrected, and will come Again,
My life belongs in His hands, His Viictory: My Win.
And It's a shame some don't know his Name and everything he's done,
He's healed the blind and the lame, and He died to make you His Son.
But pfft, what Do I know? I'm just a Human Like you.
But wait, ! He saved my life, and that is some pretty good news...

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

4 million (original song)

warning: shotty laptop speakers. you might want to keep your volume low, but turn up your ears to the lyrics!
VERSE 1
You're not the one, but you sure came really close.
Stole my glass heart, and broke it into four million 
little pieces, but I wonder if you knew
 that you
were everything, everything, everything.
We had it all, perfect love likened to violence.
Your heart was strong, but mine, hidden in sadness
And now I sit and stare and wonder if it could 
ever
Be fixed, but I'm still transfixed... 

CHORUS
4 million seconds
have seem to gone by.
But I can't deny
the will to survive.
Your love has tainted me,
 right down to my bones.
And I still don't know,
 where else I can go...
But amidst it All,
I learn to rise. 

VERSE 2
Though I had hopes, that you would be my One, 
All the songs I wrote, still you never did listen.
And now it seems that time has silenced both our words
And e-verything
 in between
Now it just hurts, when your memory attacks;
Forcing me to run around an endless racetrack.
But now I know that time, can't erase you from 
my mind,
I wonder what will be next...


BRIDGE
You moved me, first shook me, then broke me
hurt me and mourned me then left me
 Over and Over and Over
Your Love, Your love
You hit me, first beat me, then scarred me
drowned me and stained me, bu-ried me
Over and Over and Over
Your Love, Your love
I rebuilt me and broke free
withstood every damn thing
resurrected, still standing
 I'm over I'm over I'm over
your love, your love