Fireflies

The last time I saw fireflies was on a still summer night
walking home from all the mess we made,
thinking how will my life be after all this pain
that has stained
my path?
and our memories replayed
and I was reminiscing on your eyes and how healing from their cutting gaze
has been exponentially delayed.
I was deep in thought but then I was caught off guard;
I took it as a hopeful sign from God--because as I walked
through the dark,
I could see a glow from the corner of my eye
and when I focused more, I saw them--about seven fireflies,
shining in and out of existence.
And I was instantly reminded that hope requires persistence,
that no instance of depression or any lowly heartless position
could ever take away my hope...
Because it is in the most quietest moments of my soul
that a light is lit within,
always helping me get safely home.

Maybe, Just Maybe

Oh, why do I give him a single moment of my time?

My God, It’s crazy how he’s running through my mind!

And I know it’s foolish considering all of the pain

And the hurt that he left me here with, it’s always the same

and after all this time

my heart wants me to find you and let you know I still love you

but my strength wont let me fall back down to you

cause I have changed so much

I have become so tough

Overcoming all our love

I now know that God is Enough

The only One I can trust

And I pray for you so much

But with no contact

I only wonder if the devil has attacked

You, broken you, back, down and won

Or if you have changed too

And are willing to live in the Son

Maybe with time, we can forgive and forget

Maybe with love, we can erase the regret

Maybe, just maybe

But I don’t want to live in disillusions

Because I know true love is only an illusion—

No one is perfect, we all make mistakes

But why did we have to end it this way?

I want to know

If maybe, just maybe,

This still matters to you?

Does your heart still whisper “I love you”?

But more than that,

I want to know if you are safe.

Are you embracing the Sun?

Maybe, just maybe.

I hope the Light has won.

If Reality Knocks

if a tree falls in the middle of
an unpopulated area
and so then no one is around to hear it--no one perhaps except God--
does the tree actually fall?

perception
or
deception?

either way,
i'm here,
thinking and riddling the hours away
trying to figure out how to get your memory
as far away from me as possible..
knock knock
who is there?
always you.
always.

so,
if i am thinking about you
in an unpopulated area
alone in my room, where only God can hear my thoughts,
do you feel me thinking about you?
do you get the notion that i miss you/
do you realize love doesn't die?

so,
if i am thinking about you
and no one is around,
can you hear my heart through the miles in between?

i just want to know,
in a silent prayer,
do you think about me too?
and not in a way that just recognizes my existence,
but,
do you really truly think about me?

knock knock
who is it?
reality.
oh, thank you for stopping by.

Streets of Gold (original song)

I am Second (original rap)

Clouds

late nights
stolen dreams
but the light
still shines within

and it seems
that through the seams
love will always burst through

the clouds gather
my joy scatters
and fear may settle
but there is always love

and it is steadfast
and constant
and pure

what are we destined for?
my eyes glisten
from the tears
and the hopes

because
through the clouds,
my eyes can still see...

and it is all thanks to You.

Words of Life

speak words of life! 
words that are 
reflective, positive, and encouraging. 
help build a house of love! 
refrain from the unkind,
harsh and discouraging banter. 


your words are one of your
strongest tools 
and should be utilized fully.
your words have the power
to build someone up 
so help build them up to be 
everything they are meant to be.


your words will have an effect.
make sure you are spreading love

hope

and faith.

for they will always remain.

New Song (original)

original song by Stephanie T. Villeda

Verse 1:
I've been the one
desperate for love
hopin' that I would stay with you
I would pray
and make a wish
hopin' that this would be true

CHORUS: 
And now I see
you were never meant for me
And now I know 
you always had to go
And it's time to sing a new song

Verse 2:
I would stay
up really late
havin' our love forever on replay
I would cry
into the night
tryna understand why you left my side

CHORUS:
And now I see
God has bigger plans for me
And now I know
you always had to go
And it's time to sing a new song

Bridge-
You've given me
beautiful melodies
lovely memories
but it wasn't always that way
And from it all
I've learned to stand tall
not answerin' your call

'Cause I am well on my way...

... to singing a new song.

You are Everything (original song)

                                                            original song by me. inspired by God's unconditional Love.


Verse: You are Everything (4x)

Chorus (2x)
You are the reason that I sing
You are everything to me
You are everything I needYou, You, oh You, Lord 

Bridge (2x)
The AIR I breathe
The LOVE I speak
The LIFE in me
It's YOU, It's You♥ 
Oh, Lord, 
You're Everything

Hallelujah, Hallelujah

original song by Stephanie T. Villeda. inspired by God's Unconditional Love.

CHORUS

Hallelujah, Hallelujah, He reigns, He reigns.

Pouring out Love every Second that He claims, He claims.

Hallelujah, Hallelujah, He reigns, He reigns.

Nothing Greater than the Glory of His Name, His Name.



VERSE 1

No matter what I been through, Or where I've been Hiding

No matter any ache or pain, I can survive it

I can rise above it, I'm no longer a puppet

No longer tied down to negative strings,

I've got the hint,

He pulls on the Love strings, of my Heart,

And that's why I got an unbelievable New Start.

My life before just can't compare to this

Unbelievable Bliss

He struck a chord so Strong that I can't Resist.

Redeemed from my past, I can sing again out loud,

Nothing to hold me down, no longer lonely in a crowd,

All shadows cast aside, I've been saved and I survive,

I've been given a Brand. New. Life.



CHORUS



VERSE 2

He's sent me angels during my darkest hour,

Gave me courage and power, When I thought I was weak,

But His Love, ALWAYS NEAR, is one I can always keep.

Never abandoned

I've been enlightened,

Shown the true meaning of the meaning of life and

I'm forever grateful 'cause now life is beautiful.

And even though I walk through the valley of death,

He is My Breath,

The beat in my chest,

the pounce of my steps,

guides me from East to West,

moving me towards my Best,

and His Love doesn't Rest?

What could be greater than this??

Like a Warm Hug or a Soft Kiss,

He gives what I need when I need Him most,

With God, Jesus Christ, and the Holy Ghost,

Love is patient, Love is Kind, never envies, never boasts,



A perfect love more perfect than this could never exist!



BRIDGE

True, Hopeful, Never-Failing

Honest, sincere, always availing,

Humbler, Persistent, always prevailing,

His love is there for the taking and the sharing,

And that's simply why we sing cause He simply is amazing,

So let your soul rejoice in the Love that He's giving,

Cause we only get ONE life and that life is for LIVING.



CHORUS

Here, I am (original song)

original song by Stephanie T. Villeda. inspired by God's Unconditional Love. 


Verse 1
I don't even know where to start
Seems that everyone has broken my heart
I Try to discern Your Voice from theirs
Tell me, do You really hear my prayers?


CHORUS:
Here, I am, calling out to You
Tell me, God, do You hear me too?
Do You love me, like they tell me You do?
Show me, Show me, I want to know You.


Verse 2
I don't even know what to say
seems that everytime I try to pray
my heart is so consumed with
the worries of the day 
please, take the pain away


Yet, in You, I trust always


CHORUS:
Here, I am, calling out to You
Tell me, God, do You hear me too?
Do You love me, like they tell me You do?
Show me, Show me, I want to know You.


Bridge
I close my eyes, Expose my heart, Here I am, Before You (4x)
And I feel Your Love, knocking deep inside my heart
And I know You're here, everything points straight to You
And I know You're real, deserving of every praise,
but I steady my voice as I hear You say...


CHORUS:
Here, I am, calling out for you
Tell me, Son, do you want Me too?
Do you love Me? 'Cause I've always loved you.
Show Me, Show Me, I want to know... you.

Bright Eyed Boy

oh, 

it's the bright eyed boy 
with the smile on his heart, 
that makes mine beat fast...
he's got me thinkin' 'bout 
that thing 
and I can only hope this will last...
I can see so much beauty
within those eyes,

emanating from deep within...

this joy, our hearts,
how safely they shine,

I never thought I'd feel this again...

a man of devotion,

my expectations surpassed...

oh,

how I pray this will last.

Every time

Every time I wake,
the Sun sings to my soul and my soul sings praises to the Lord.
How grateful I am to rise yet again!

Every time I wake,
my bones become more brittle, my skin aging from their demands,
forever being reminded that I am human.
Every time I wake,
your face breaks through the light, haunting my thoughts,
and I am burdened by your memory.

Every time, I pray for the strength to get through another day.

Every time I take a step,
through the moments,
through the breaths,
through the thoughts,
through the dreams,
through the mists,
through the memories,
you are present, yet fleeting,
and I am left empty...

Every time,
I expect you to be there,
waiting for me on my way home...



What took you so long, my darling?



Every time, I pray for the strength to get through this day.







Sorry, I couldn't make it.
you  are alive, here, inside my heart,
yet here, in this outside world, you are nothing
but the reflection of the ghost of a man
I once knew...
Every time I close my eyes,
your image floats through my mind,
and I am left reaching out yet grasping only Air.
Everytime I close my eyes,
the storm is relentless within, the Winds piercing
and crushing my heart, yet I am almost to the shore.

Every time I close my eyes,
the stars inside my mind seem to whisper
louder than the sound of your silence, I am not alone.

Everytime, I pray for the strength to get through today.

3:29 a.m.

I was dreaming...
your image floating , steady, like a breeze.
slowly, ever so, you were almost in full view.
rising, ever so, my heart against its cage,
and then, like a swift talon bringing death,
five gun shots
stole my dream away.
they reverberated against the walls;
loud and unforgiving.
Am I still dreaming?

panicked whispers
beat mercilessly through
my windowpane,
as the white snow
incessantly
falls like the rain,
and still, your love,
leaves me without gain.

I wondered, was anyone hurt?
A small gray car pulled away,
without urgency nor hushed efforts,
driving itself deeper into the dirt.

may God amend the perilous road.

Like You

Let me take this second to introduce myself,
I am a human like you, no more no less,
I'm here to help clarify some misconceptions,
and bring back all Honor and Glory in His Direction.
See Life, this one we have, was designed with perfection,
but the One who designed it gaves us freedom of selection:
To choose what we choose and live how we may,
knowing that His Vicotry is without condemnation.
See, I can readily speak with no hesitation,
words flowing, thoughts in easy cirulation,
but the reason behing this is Capital-T Truth         for the Nations.
See, with Him, there is no End, just Eternal Salvation.
But that freedom of choice is what allowed us to bring in Sin and evil,
We exposed our own nakedness back in the Garden of Eden:
Shame and pin befell
Our own disobedience led us straight to Hell,
but uh, I don't know if you've heard:
There is hope. And it lies in the Word.
Peace of mind, free from all binds,
not caught in the sands of time,
we are liberated in divine grace,
So, Redirect your attention and come to face these lines from Scripture:
With Him , in Him, and Of him, be more like Him,
continue no sin, show Him that you Love Him.
For the Love of money and greed has got you deceived,
So, Love your Neighbor and your Enemies.
If we really believe or our eyes are beginning to see,
then the latter is the reality we need to perceive.

I've come to realize that nothing is more important than Him.
That this life I hold in my hands was once drowning in Sin,
But because He came, Died, Resurrected, and will come Again,
My life belongs in His hands, His Viictory: My Win.
And It's a shame some don't know his Name and everything he's done,
He's healed the blind and the lame, and He died to make you His Son.
But pfft, what Do I know? I'm just a Human Like you.
But wait, ! He saved my life, and that is some pretty good news...

4 million (original song)

warning: shotty laptop speakers. you might want to keep your volume low, but turn up your ears to the lyrics!

VERSE 1

You're not the one, but you sure came really close.
Stole my glass heart, and broke it into four million 

little pieces, but I wonder if you knew

 that you
were everything, everything, everything.

We had it all, perfect love likened to violence.
Your heart was strong, but mine, hidden in sadness
And now I sit and stare and wonder if it could 

ever

Be fixed, but I'm still transfixed... 

CHORUS
4 million seconds

have seem to gone by.

But I can't deny

the will to survive.

Your love has tainted me,

 right down to my bones.

And I still don't know,

 where else I can go...

But amidst it All,

I learn to rise. 

VERSE 2
Though I had hopes, that you would be my One, 
All the songs I wrote, still you never did listen.
And now it seems that time has silenced both our words
And e-verything

 in between
Now it just hurts, when your memory attacks;
Forcing me to run around an endless racetrack.
But now I know that time, can't erase you from 

my mind,
I wonder what will be next...

BRIDGE
You moved me, first shook me, then broke me

hurt me and mourned me then left me

 Over and Over and Over

Your Love, Your love
You hit me, first beat me, then scarred me

drowned me and stained me, bu-ried me

Over and Over and Over

Your Love, Your love
I rebuilt me and broke free

withstood every damn thing

resurrected, still standing

 I'm over I'm over I'm over

your love, your love

Sometimes

sometimes...

my thoughts regress

as the beat in my chest

looms on the dimming excess

of the pain you have left

and of the sirens of regrets

and I wonder where it all went?

how was it all spent--

so quick with no caress

to soothe these wounds, the tempest

now rages, and cages

in my desperate attempt

to flee and fly and forget.

The Visitor

A visitor drifted into my town,

and we met on the corner of Love and Lust.

His voice so deep, mysterious, and profound;

to explore it further was a must.

Walking among the giants of the city,

his hand kept mine warm and protected.

He said, "You're so beautiful. So pretty,"
and for some small moments, we connected.

Gazing over candlelight,
with soft jazz interludes,
We shared memories of a long time passed.
Desire was winning the fight,
as my heart did finally conclude,
to kiss could not be wrong, though it wouldn't last.

With fingers interlaced,
we traveled across the Brooklyn bridge,
the city forever shining, so glorious, momentous.
With judgement misplaced,
I was fighting the brevity of this image;

my heart knew I'd be losing, this nakedness, too dangerous.

We continued on to the center of Times Square,

where the stairs are red and the crowd is contagious.

His lips brushed mine as my heart echoed a prayer,

but what we had will remain as always nameless.

It all had been for no more than three days,
but something so beautiful had occurred.
He taught me that kisses could come as bouquets,
a dozen or more, enthralling and completely absurd.

I've been told that when good things come,

they shouldn't be questioned.

They are worthwhile, passionate and seldom,

and may even be pre-destined.

And alas, I do long for yet another moment,

but more so, I pray that I may be Pardoned...

for The visitor had came and went,

leaving my lips stained, crimsoned, abandoned.

grieving

why do I continue
to raise you
on a pedestal
when you are

WORTH LESS

than the least of men?

my mind is blurred
my tears now stain the floor
my heart has always only had hurt
and all of it due to you

i've been here before
crying on the floor,
tears overtaking my body,
losing the fight against gravity,
sinking
as I am aching
from the pain that seems
to never cease,
and not caring
who hears my grief...

Deserving of Love

I do not know why I treat you the way I do;

I feel like you deserve the best of me

but at times, I feel exactly the opposite--

that you deserve none of me.

Holding on to the past

has caused me to waste so many moments;

I know that deep within my heart,

but still,
I cannot keep my heart still
nor can I keep it away
from all the pain you have caused it in the past.

It is our past that haunts my present,
and although I genuinely want to move on
to a brighter and happier future,
I am still stuck in the mindset of our yesterdays.

I want to forgive and forget.
I pray for the strength to look past all our iniquities.
Hey, if Jesus could do it,
why can't I forgive you 77 x 7 times?
Why do I still struggle to just accept
what has been done, and move on?
It is so simple to do
and yet so difficult to get started on.

I search my heart, my mind, my soul;
what is it about my life that I feel stuck in this anger?
I want to let go,
to be able to fully move on,
and live a life of happiness--
the life that I deserve to live.
The life that you deserve, as well.

You deserve the moon and the stars,
the brightest lights to keep shining for you,
so bright that you are blinded by their beauty
and yet, you can't help but keep looking on.

You deserve the tightest hug and deepest kiss,
both of which would be incomplete without the other,
both of which would let you know that you are loved,
that you are protected and desired;
that there is my set of arms and my set of lips that needs yours.

You deserve A kiss that is electric fuzz fire,
that ignites into the deepest intricacies of you,
that laces itself through your bones and
that emanates from you with a heat so unforgiving,
the only way to deal with its intensity
is to just accept it as such.

You deserve the sweetest smile, everytime,
to know that you mean the world to me,
to know that you do make me smile,
that you stir in me a joy that can cause my world to
shift from misery to glory in less than an instant.

You deserve A heart that knows your own,
that is willing to get to know your own,
in all its imperfections and worries and glories,
and that is a complement to your own;
a heart that can beat just as fast and just as strong,
without cease, without exhaust.

You deserve the softest hand to hold through it all,
and a supportive voice to encourage you through your flaws;
you deserve these things because, although you are a Mountain Man to me (strong and willed), when you lack that strength, you will never be alone,
for my hand and my voice will be there for you.

You deserve all of this and more because I do as well...
We deserve happiness.

The question is:
Are we willing to REALLY try again? To actually forgive and forget?
To move on and accept that happiness is available if we just try (if I just try...)?
To give each other that heart that will be safe and warm?
To envelop eachother with the beautiful silken lips that stir the soul?
To lay down the flaws and embrace the Imperfect Perfection that is so wonderful?
Love is the answer to everything.

But if Love is knocking already,

so strong and persistent,
why can't I answer?